It’s been almost two years since I last wrote.
A lot has changed in my life.
But perhaps it’s a good sign that I haven’t needed to write more here.
Because ultimately what’s the point?
Nothing really changes.
I still get upset at the people who should understand but don’t understand.
In turn, I am made to feel worse about myself.
Why fall into that trap?
Let it go and find other meaningful things to do.
Life is more important than always trying to gain the understanding of other people.
If they don’t think being significant to me is significant,
If they think they are already doing their best and are already too loving,
then it’s useless trying to change that.
Who wants to haggle over one’s standing in the heart all the time?
The constant and strenuous effort of being the most important one.
It’s okay then.
It’s not worth it.
As if I am so petty that all I do is out of selfishness,
When in reality it is about building a relationship.
But if I shouldn’t care this much, then I shan’t.
We are all given choices to make in life.
I heard it loud and clear the choices made.
If that’s the way it is, that’s the way it is.
I can deal with it.
It’s just too bad.
