(originally posted March 11, 2014)
Our small group is studying CS Lewis' Four Loves. It is a great book. Very well written. A little gem that is filled with wisdom. For our March meeting, hubs couldn't make it because he had to work. He usually has a lot to say, and brings a lot to the discussion. So in his absence, I noticed something about myself.
Don't take me wrong. I shared a lot during the discussion. But I am so much more interested in sharing what I gleaned from the chapters, and what I remembered than anything else. I have a lot data, and I have very good retention. But I'm less concerned about about how the chapters might point to some real challenges in the world around me, or how it might have failed to reflect about circumstances in the world. It is not that I don't process what Lewis said. Obviously I have to know what he said in order to know where I think are the major points and his contributions. I think my problem is that I am content, if not happy with just going about with info. I am content in knowing that I know the stuff, and I rest my case with that. I don't want to raise questions that might rock the boat. Or, other times I don't have questions that will make a person ponder. I am content with just recounting the material, and with simple, straight forward application.
This was also the problem that I had with my dissertation. While I also made an argument, many times I lost myself in the description because I was so thrilled by what I found. Simply having the knowledge of information is sometimes so satisfying to me. Sometimes I think information alone is enough. I need not do anything else. I fail to show people the connection, or the why. Other times I simply lack the inquisitiveness to probe, and that can be very problematic. I don't challenge people enough; I don't challenge myself enough.
Don't take me wrong. I shared a lot during the discussion. But I am so much more interested in sharing what I gleaned from the chapters, and what I remembered than anything else. I have a lot data, and I have very good retention. But I'm less concerned about about how the chapters might point to some real challenges in the world around me, or how it might have failed to reflect about circumstances in the world. It is not that I don't process what Lewis said. Obviously I have to know what he said in order to know where I think are the major points and his contributions. I think my problem is that I am content, if not happy with just going about with info. I am content in knowing that I know the stuff, and I rest my case with that. I don't want to raise questions that might rock the boat. Or, other times I don't have questions that will make a person ponder. I am content with just recounting the material, and with simple, straight forward application.
This was also the problem that I had with my dissertation. While I also made an argument, many times I lost myself in the description because I was so thrilled by what I found. Simply having the knowledge of information is sometimes so satisfying to me. Sometimes I think information alone is enough. I need not do anything else. I fail to show people the connection, or the why. Other times I simply lack the inquisitiveness to probe, and that can be very problematic. I don't challenge people enough; I don't challenge myself enough.
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